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Alyssa in Wonderjunk

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Remember Alice in Wonderland when you were a kid? When i was a little girl i loved watching like a normal child should be, i even try to stay up late when i miss it from Disney Channel. Recently, I thought that i have been living in Wonderland. A world of wonders where nobody is melancholic. Much like the movie The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus wherein if you go through his magic portal you will be in a place where you have always dreamed of.


We all had that phase in life where we acted like everything is about Cake Dreams and Lovely Paradise. Like our Moms told us that we will be the president of the country or become a big shot Celebrity. Then we tell it to other kids, they would say that his Mom told him the same story. If we all get to be the president who will we rule? funny things our moms makes us think, and It's all for our feeble confidence. But, One day reality hits everything gets morose and we lose the world we've lived in before where all the good always last. Dreams just become an illusion. Some gets Lucky and gets to live their Dream. In the bigger picture Reality seems sad, lonely and just plain miserable, however, we can't live the dream if we don't get to live in reality. Then, after a Lifetime we'll realize Life ain't half bad. I'm still at the point of loathing everything, but, i still believe that i'll get to live in Wonderland.

 Life bites we can't do anything about that, what we could do is live it, fight it, go with it.

A couple of advise from a Stranger;
  • When you do something always make sure it's for the greater good and for God.
  • Pray.
  • One day you will look back and say "I take back all those times i didn't want to nap."
  • You will realize "Learning cursive, is it really necessary?" 
  • Bad decision make Good stories.
  • You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment when you know that you aren't going to be productive the whole day.
  • Don't be in love with the idea of being in love.
  • Travel and learn diverse cultures.
  • Take Photos.
  • Express yourself through Art.
  • Walk alone in a park or somewhere peaceful and try to reflect on your thoughts.
  • Work is what you do. Not who you are.
  • Give the seat to those who need it more like the old lady standing in front of you.
  • Say "Thank You." often.
  • Read Books.
  • Make room for Ice Cream.
  • Let the child inside your heart come out once in awhile.
  • When nothing is in your hand, your hand is empty like always.
  • Eat it. Don't tweet it.
  • Therapy is expensive, Bubble wrap is Cheap. Your Choice
  • Smile and Laugh! for the right reason of course.
  • Keep Learning.
  • Don't be Critical to others.
and The best advice is this: Don't take advices. 

Au Paris

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Most of us are so busy with trying to have a good life.We work hard to get the things we need that sometimes, we forget the real good things in Life like Travelling. Working hard is not a bad thing thus, actually GOOD. But, most people grieve that they didn't do this or that after some time.

Do you ever think while working at your desk where you really wanna be at that moment? Where is your dream destination?. Me, It's PARIS. Now, I haven't really been anywhere outside my country or even at the best spots in my own town. I simply don't have the opportunity to do that plus, i'm scared of travelling alone. But, I know i will travel either alone or with a company. I've dreamed about France when i was a kid because i wanted to be a Designer. The association with Fashion is what amused me to the country. 

A quick history check: It is an important industry and cultural export of France since the 17th century, and originated with King Louis XIV. Modern "haute couture" originated in Paris in the 1860s. The expression Haute couture is, in France, a legally protected name, guaranteeing certain quality standards.
Also, the Arts, that has always been in my heart. Let us not forget where is the famous Musée du Louvre located. French arts influenced by Italian Renaissance, Famed in Baroque era. Last but not the least, The ever majestic Eiffel tower.

The renaissance era movies is also what attracted me about it's history. I still have a lot to know about France and it's Culture. These are one of the reasons why i am in such awe about French Culture. I love my own but i am curious about the French.

This was shot during a Lazy Sunday Afternoon, thought about using this piece of accessory to show my love for PARIS. This is an inspiration on how France is the land of Love and Romance.

Tops: Collared top with Polka dots; Thrifted
Bottoms: Lace skirt; Thrifted
Shoes; Oxfords; Divisoria
Accessories; Eiffel tower necklace


D.I.Y. Mint Blue Dyed Jeans

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I have always wanted a Mint blue jeans in my closet of treasures. Unluckily, I've searched high and low for the elusive pair of jeans. I stumbled upon some videos about jeans, It had a lot acid-washing, tie-dyeing, distressed look and dyeing with a pastel hue. I've been dying to dye my white jeans, i had one, never worn it, not once in years.

 So, I decided to make one of my own. I really do apologize if i'm unable to show the pictures how the whole process goes because what happened to me was almost a disaster.
When i did it, I put in some salt to the hot water so that the color will stick forever, that means if you screw up the horror that you did with your beloved piece will be trash. While, i was busy steeping, dissolving and stirring the mint blue dye on a bucket, I forgot to remember that i should have not folded the denim in the bucket. I had cold sweats because the color were in horrible blue patches. I honestly didn't know what to do, i was worried sick, i thought i'd lose my only white pair of jeans. I was really thinking hard on how to solve this, i considered washing it with bleach *because i did that with my other denim acid-wash remember?* so that the color will be washed-out. But, i was persistent on keeping what i did and polish it maybe hoping it could be better. Alas, SuperMom was there!. She saved my horrible piece of crap and turned it into a Mint Blue Denim. She put the denim into the washer and put it for a spin. It was saved! Hallelujah! 
Just so you know this is not only a Tutorial but a story of a quick idiocy that i don't want you guys to suffer. *haha* Which is why i didn't get to take pictures of the process. 
P.S. Moms know a lot more about D.I.Y.'s than you think.

What to do:

  1. Fill a bucket with hot water and your dye, according to the instructions on the dye. 
  2. Run your jeans under hot water.  
  3. Put on your rubber gloves *dyes are harsh to skin* Put the jeans into the bucket full of Mint Blue dye. Stir them with a wooden spoon/stick. For a light dye job, stir for 10 minutes; for a dark dye job, stir for up to 30 minutes. For best color results when dyeing fabrics containing cotton, rayon, ramie, or linen, add 1 cup salt to the bucket.
  4. Take the jeans out of the bucket and rinse them with warm water. Lower the water temperature as your rinse, until the water runs clear. 
  5. Wash the jeans in the washing machine with a mild detergent.
  6. Let your jeans air dry. 

Butchercons

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 It was a night off that i had to put for a good use. My friend Cherry asked me if i wanted to go to a music launch she was in, I said "Yeah, why not? I wanna see the Vid from my own eyes *hahaha*". Anyway, I was a fan of bands way back in highschool, a die hard fan? Nope, Just right? Yes. I used to flip the channel to MTV and contemplate, it was like my own world. My Music and Me.

 I was so excited to see her in the Music Video. Before we got to our destination i was at the office getting the hard earned dough. The company's bank got a problem, so we had to get in cash really a bummer. By the way, Mom didn't know *haha* i secretly snuck out *shhh*. We went to Route 196 Bar in Katipunan, Q.C., with some of Cherry's friends. The atmosphere was nice and mellow, unlike those noisy clubs. I don't usually have a night out, i was  exhilarated the night was young. The bar we went to was loaded with independent musicians and hipsters. I really liked it there it was laid back, some are rich kids and snobs *meh* we didn't care. I was excited at the same time blown with what i had seen. The bands played, it was chaos but you know what i Enjoyed. There were headbangings, skullsmashing, guitar-wrecking, and weird Chicken Moves. It was really fun, I loved every minute which is weird because i swear i almost lost my eardrums. Turbo Goth played; Paolo Peralta on guitars and Sarah Gaugler on vocals, she looks like Audrey Hepburn somehow. Their performance was fantastic with the weird moves and all. Then, we got to see the vid made by Bob *friend of Cherry*. The vid was so shocking it was not for little girls like me. R-16 maybe? no, kidding. It was a fun music vid., about partying and all that crap. The scene she was in was about two drunk girls getting it on but, it was not overboard. It was tastefully done, not embarrassing.

 After Route 169, we went to starbucks to pass time. The battle between my eyes and my consciousness was really heavy. I was so sleepy but i really tried to be wide awake in the hopes of a cute guy coming in, i'd rather be dead than be caught looking like a drunk zombie. I was talking to Cherry's friend, then she started to do this outrageous crunched up faces. I don't know why, she just continued ranting on about her complicated lover and making faces which woke me up. Oh dear, i really wanted to laugh, even imagining it makes me chuckle. She was really nice to talk to though. I want to apologize Ever V. if you're reading this, but yeah you were doing weird faces when you were talking. I still like you though, you're really nice. I also got to try on a Martin Bautista creation courtesy of Xeng. Thank you.
There goes my adventure. I went home feeling guilty but my mom never knew unless she reads this. *haha*

Pitch Black

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Birthday greetings to my good friend Mej!. This was an event not to miss.

I was supposed to wear a short shorts however, it was raining hard and it was friggin' cold. I had to put on something that could cover me but would still be cool to wear so i could breath. I was kinda hesitant to wear black since i was going to a part but hey, it was raining so i had an excuse.

Funny thing happed to me before i got to Saisaki Dads Kamay-Kainan in Edsa. I was supposed to be there by 6 p.m. as agreed upon but traffic was really a b****. I had wet sandals, the good thing was it was waterproof but, it was really icky wearing wet shoes *ugh*. It was windy so my hair was a disaster. I almost lost my phone *totally my fault*.

But, it was still fun. I got to be with my friends we dined, we laughed and we caught ourselves within memory lane : )



Tops: Silhouette Button-up Shirt, Tank top
Bottoms: High-waisted Pants 
Accessories: Braided Belt
Shoes: Strapped Sandals
Bag: Cross-body Acid-Washed Hobo Bag

Life is Short

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The real question isn't whether life exists After Death, The real question is whether you are alive Before Death- Osho

 I have been thinking i really need/wanna get out and do what i want. I really don't get out much because i have particularly good reasons: 1. I have strict parents 2. I have strict parents 3. too LAZY!!!

 Be Happy without having to impress others. Life is Short if you don't fulfill those unfinished business you might end up a sad little old person with 27 cats and regrets. When i think about it i haven't really done much...it's like i have this urge to do stuff like mountain climbing, hiking alone, travel abroad, eat gelato from Italy, go to Paris, see the all time noir classics stuff like that and a whole lot more. I envy those people with a lot of mistakes in life, i mean i don't envy the mistake per se... but i envy the experience they've had...the fun of it...the stories they could tell to their future offsprings. Experiences are great bad or good it's still a good story to tell but, mostly good is boring...Bad experiences when told is for a good laugh...Better. This means i really have to live life, make decisions bad or not and have a good laugh in the future.e

 I really like this shirt reminds me that i need to get out more often. This shirt is actually 8 years old...i haven't used this much because of the style. I revamped by cutting the sleeves...reviving. I am taking some changes in  my life so that i won't end up with 27 cats and regrets...Learning new things, reviving my passion in arts, Living little by little.



Breakfast At Tiffany's

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Lately, I’ve been into 50’s and Era-descent movies. I don’t know maybe it’s because of their glamour, the art in it, the beauty, the witty lines it is just so refreshing for me to watch a movie that is before me. I saw Breakfast at Tiffany’s recently well i could say it was Glamorous and witty. Expected in a 50’s Hollywood movie. I liked it very much the way that they were not opposites. The main characters were more of friendship turned into well, LOVE. The movie was witty and funny but missing on some more romance maybe a little cause i’m used to “opposite attract” (hey i’m a 90’s baby so give me a break :p). The characters was really great well especially Holly Golightly, but the movie was focused on her being more of chasing rich old men and getting on their pocket. She has priorities and the number 1 on her list is her brother. She gets paid by socializing with rich men which is like a Geisha, dependent on her looks she gets gifts and stunning diamond earrings which is sooo loved.
Holly’s “Wild Thing” persona gave the movie the humor. Free-spirited but alone and longing for her brother. The movie was a light romance and comedy and it looks at the point of being “a real phony in the upper east side”.
I really liked the movie but i’d love it if it was in the right mix of romance and humour. But, all in all the movie was great. The movie was Quick-Witted, funny and Glamorous. I found myself wanting Holly’s wardrobe, eating pastry in the morning and going to a Tiffany store :)

Book Report: The Perks Of Being a Wallflower

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The Perks of being a Wallflower was introduced to me by a Great friend of mine. When she gave me a description about it i said that "i'm really excited to read it.", but because of some stressful events i got lazy. The book waited for me to be read for a few months then alas, i looked up the trailer and some description about the Book and read it within 24hours. I was really proud because this is the first time that i read a book within a day. Some books took me a week, some took me a month to finish because of distraction and laziness hahaha. and also this is my first time to write an essay because i was really inspired to the message of the story. I hope/will start this hobby of concentrating to the story and be persistent on reading..i actually have a line up of books already. I hope you guys will like my point of view. Enjoy! :)
The Perks of being a wallflower is a great novel from Stephen Chbosky. It depicts the meaning of Family, Friendship, Adolescence and more importantly Life. Though it has some share of its downside, the love and care of the protagonist has a lot to say. This is the first time I read a novel which is light and warmhearted yet tragic. It has inspired and taught me about pieces of reality and what it really is.

Charlie the protagonist for me is great character. He is a realist, in a way on how he described people and how he did not exaggerate the facts but described them in his own eyes, and not with what he thought of them. I remember when he saw Sam's Boyfriend Craig he said that he was "Cut and Hunky.". The words he used was from Patrick but he still admitted. The way he sees everybody as Beautiful meaning he appreciates beauty in every way. He described Sam as prettiest of them all even from his mother which is quite a looker according to Charlie. Charlie submitted to the fact that he could never think of Sam that way because he was told he was too young, as the novel progressed he realised he truly loved her, but he could never think to pursue her even if it hurt. The time when Sam and Craig broke up, Charlie told Sam that "I just wanted you (Sam) to be happy, even if it meant that I could never think of you that way.".

The main character's personality loved and cared for everyone by being there. When his sister was hit by her boyfriend which Charlie saw and was later informed to their parents through Bill, but Charlie never intended to tell on her sister. He just loved her he doesn't want her to be hit ever again, As their parents found out. His sister was never to see the boy again which made his sister hate him. He knew this and all he could say are the words "I Love you." But her sister only got angrier said "you're such a freak!". Later on, Charlie's Sister found out she was pregnant, he was there to console her. They hugged and uttered the words "I Love you." To each other which made his sister closer to Charlie. He helped Patrick when he got into a fight with Brad and his football buddies because brad called him "faggot" because brad wanted to look masculine by saying such word. He was there when Patrick was hurt, when Brad's father knew about them. And Even if Patrick made a move on Charlie still he understood that Patrick was sad and broken. Patrick said "It's too bad you're not gay.", Then Charlie said, "if I were gay, I'd date you(Patrick)." Maybe because Patrick was such a good friend.

His observation to things are spectacular, his way of thinking is "unconventional", it's like he is above all of it. He has seen things and kept quiet about them. When he analyze a situation he understood. Charlie's English teacher, Bill, said that people who thinks to much just wants to avoid participating. Charlie observes people and analyses what the situation is and tries his best to understand and accept the circumstances. Yet, he was also being simple minded but it is so much more to that. He once said when he was offered a bottle, "I just didn't like the taste of beer, Simple as that.".

I was quite astonished with his personality and the truth and goodness of Charlie's heart and his relationship to everyone. His best friend Michael who killed himself, maybe depressed like him but, it was said that he cared for Michael, though their relationship was not emphasised. The Philosophy his teacher Bill told him to be outgoing or "Participate" in life because he was a "Wallflower". He possess the trait of being "what people wants to see in him" like a flexible or malleable friend that could be anything you want, but meant not being true to himself. He was a help and a part of everyone's lives. When he dated Mary Elizabeth, Sam told him to be what Mary Elizabeth wanted. And Mary Elizabeth liked her and said " you are the most sensitive boy I've ever met.", though he did not really like her he was just being "too nice" because he did want to hurt anybody. Sam confronted him at the end she wanted to know what charlie wants. She did not want Charlie to not be himself just to be a friend to everyone. She asked why he did not ask her out?, or why he did not kiss her on the dance floor?. And did he want to kiss her?. He said that he wanted to kiss her but couldn't because of what Sam said 9 months ago. She told him that being there is not enough. He was a great friend but he was not being honest by not being true to himself, and not being true to want he wanted.

He was diagnosed as Passive-Aggresive type. He was advised by his psychiatrist to stop playing sports because that made him aggressive. Charlie was always Shy and timid. He felt like nobody could understand him even his Aunt Helen. He has been exposed to a lot of laughs and obstacles through the whole book by saying, "And I want you to know that i am both happy and sad but I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.". His nature did not encourage him to express what he feels, except by writing to his anonymous friend and reading books. He Told his friend that "I just need to know that someone out there listens and doesn't try to sleep with people even if they could have." he felt that this person could understand what he went through.

I was really curious on how Charlie was like a "Blank-Slate" like a baby that is. He was at the stage of exploring peers and adolescence. From the time that he went to his 1st party. Where he was given a brownie. A weird Brownie "if you know what I mean." Then, got stoned and asked Sam for a Milkshake. Charlie went to a point where he was alone and hated by his friends and his only connection to them was Bob the Marijuana Dealer, maybe because he was reminded of them. It was a bit hilarious that Charlie became a "Pot head" at a time. He matured from books and experience, a sponge that became a filter. He showed growth and wisdom after some time also because of the books he read. He adapted the Philosophy behind every book.

There were a lot of intense emotions going through Charlie's head. He was quite an "Emotional Rollercoaster.", He cries a lot maybe that's his way to let out some of the steam from his gut. That is why he is not a typical Boy emotionally. He somewhat thinks like a woman in part of his sensitivity to feelings. Charlie is quite attached to Sam and Patrick and all of their other friends, that is why he had a panic attack when he realised they are going off to college and well, he is to be alone.

The most shocking part was that Charlie realised he was Molested by his Aunt Helen. He later knew that he repressed his memories thinking it was only dreams. That was why he was in denial of what the psychiatrist asked him and said it was "weird questions". He loved his Aunt Helen very much because she was the one who gave him warmth, hugs and says "I Love You" often. Though his family loved him and he felt the same for them. I think that he repressed his memory is because of both guilt and love for his Aunt. The day his Aunt died from a car accident was on his 7th birthday and every year She was the only one that bought him 2 presents. 1 for his birthday and another as a Christmas present. He Blamed himself because his Aunt died trying to buy him another present. Charlie would always hyperventilate and have Panic Attacks after his aunt died. Every year, on his Birthday.

At first I thought Charlie was just some troubled kid that has gone mental. But, he was more to that. I think he portrayed everyone of us, even just a bit.

And lastly, I could never forget the part where they were going through a tunnel. They turned the music up. Sam gave Patrick the stirring wheel and climbed to the back of her pick up and stood up. She put her hands up to feel the wind like she was flying. Being young and free. The tunnel and wind made it felt like for a moment they could forget it all. I felt every word in this part, When Charlie felt the emotion and said " at this moment...We Were Infinite." I knew he was at his happiest.

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