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Desensitization

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Have you heard of Systematic Desensitization?

 One glorious morning, Another getaway was planned with my beloved friends. To go to a breezy and soothing Paradiso. We just intended to chill out in a coffee shop, I also planned to shoot some photos for LB.nu and look for something refreshing in my eyes. Realizations hit me as i look past through a majestic sight of Taal Volcano. I am horrified with my emotions. My friend told me that straight to my face. I am emotionally unstable because of my calm-nature. Honestly, i am a Pacifist as I've observed, i don't like troubles, arguments and confrontation. Though, sometimes i get a little cranky like a living, breathing, walking time bomb. I know that i keep all of those emotion to myself, I've learnt how to keep it just to myself so that no one could ever read me. But, keeping those could be a burden like a big lump on your throat and all you want to do is shout and kick somebody's arse.
"Remember what you are after is to Learn." --Jeremiah King
This is how i keep myself from getting into extremes. I am frighten to lose myself over little, stupid and irrational behavior. But over little a year ago, i somehow thought that this burden is not healthy. Hence, this blog was born. I still keep a bit for myself, but, i put in all my opinion and heart into this little page on the internet.
"I'm just remembering one of the biggest lesson in my life, so that i won't lose control." --Jeremiah King

 I've been afraid of what People and Life could do to me that's why i preserve all my thoughts and conserve those conscious mental reaction in my own little world. Phobia and Trust issues, are the reason why i'm such a scaredy-cat and my only way out is to Avoid.
Fight or Flight.
Specific phobias are often treated via Systematic Desensitization. When persons experience such phobias (for example fears of heights, dogs, snakes, closed spaces, etc.), they tend to avoid the feared stimuli; this avoidance, in turn, can temporarily reduce anxiety but is not necessarily an adaptive way of coping with it. In this regard, Avoidance behaviors can become reinforced -a concept defined by the tenets of operant conditioning. Being avoidant is not entirely Good nor Bad. In a way, it is something that we could turn to when we don't have a choice. Wrong turns on the other hand, could lead to Ostracism and Social isolation.

"You can't create a Perfect world, Izza." --Jeremiah King
I don't want to grow old full of regrets because i did not do anything to be risky. To live a full life is to make wrong decisions and learn from it to be successful.  No one can create a Perfect world.

 I do not prefer to live in mediocrity, but, to what i've been used to is not so bad. I am in the process of change. To Face my Fears. 

 I've recently had a conversation to my good friend Jeremiah. If Plato had Socrates, Mine was Jeremiah like my own tuition-free Philosophy Teacher. A rational, critical-thinking human, a good friend, and the worst when it comes to matters of bitterness. *haha* but, he's still a great friend.
"I get your point, but if you already know what will happen or how it is going to end, Why not take the chances?" --Jeremiah King
A photo taken on a busy highways of Tagaytay. We were so eager to make this Levitation and to take an exciting, exhilarating picture. It was really something, Facing danger on another level, To experience something you are not sure whether we would be hit by a car or hit by a bus. *haha* Thank you Hanna and Nikki, for giving into my whims.
"You can do whatever you want...on an empty canvas." --Jeremiah King.

Eat.Pray.Love.

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Have you ever felt that you just needed an "Eat.Pray.Love." scene in your life?.

One morning my Good friend Danica and i went out to answer some questionnaires for our near exams. We needed a perfect place to organize our thoughts. We thought going to a quiet, peaceful and ever-calming Tagaytay would be a fantastic idea. Alas, we were wrong but we enjoyed the road trip all antics and laughs along the road.

Majestic creation of a mysterious being.
Early morning we really didn't know where to go the only idea we had was to go to Tagaytay haven of peace, my kind of place to chill out. I really love places where i could just blank-out and not say anything, it was like being reflective of everything around you.

L'amoure
This place is the quickest and accessible sanctuary to go to when you just wanna be inspired. Better yet, bringing your lover with you. Romantic and Inspiration filled at the same time what more could you ask for?. I really wanted to just hang-out here because i've not been well lately and i just want to check up on myself.

“Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions.” 

Off to a Cliff
Seeing these beauty made me forget and just be happy with everything. Staring to this is like seeing heaven. It is really like an Eat.Pray.Love. moment.

“In a world of disorder and disaster and fraud, sometimes only beauty can be trusted. The appreciation of pleasure can be an anchor to one’s humanity.”

Greed's Concoction
We passed by a local casino in Tagaytay. I've been to Casino's, i don't play but i don't have anything against gambling. I actually enjoy looking at the people with poker chips and serious-constipated faces *haha*. It's fun to see them win and when they lose? All hell breaks loose. I get to learn some tricks but i'm not really a gambler, according to my friends "Risks" are not really my thing.

Watchtower
I remember a resemblance to the watchtowers in PC games, They must have put this up because people inside are very much important and they are putting up enemy lines. Just my opinion.

Wish upon a well
I got bored so i wandered about to take some pictures and savor the time i had. When i saw a glimpse of this well, I immediately went for it to take shots since they don't have much interesting around the corner this is pretty much the best, I think. Plus, i would be caught dead if i take pictures of their flashy lights. I wanted to toss a coin and make a small wish but i left my wallet in the car and i was too lazy to get it. 

Simba's Pride
I walked around looking for good stimulating pictures. As i roamed around, i saw this grasslands. It was like an empty vast land, this reminded me of  the movie "Lion King". It was like an African Safari where a wild animal could pounce on you anytime.

“Operation Self-Esteem--Day Fucking One." -- Eat.Pray.Love
Then, i got a little crazy. I was by myself and desperate for a good pictures. A Mini light bulb popped above my head, I thought self-portrait is now a good time. I set up the camera even if people are staring. I was doing a lot weird movements even if i was alone so i guess the people that saw me was boggled. Posing for every shots and running around just to click on the shutter again. It was fun!, especially when the old rich people are weirded out with what i was doing *haha*.


“eventually, everything goes away.” -- Eat.Pray.Love.
I was really happy to have made this Levitation. I never thought that i could actually go out and do Levitation Photography and all thanks to Danica. I will still try to do this to other places, I just hope i would be able to travel.

Fashion Levitation
I tried to put on a belt to make it look somehow like an LB and Levitation combined. I think it failed because everything is flying around. But it does it look cute, right?

Danica
 This is Danica, my good friend and such a nice person, A little moody though but she's super nice. We still didn't wanna go home so she thought to go to a nail spa and put on some girly polish as our last stop. I agreed, though i don't really go to a salon to get my nails done because i do it by myself as a cheapskate i am. We just talked and talked and talked like everyday. I'm really glad to have met her and became her friend. She's like a sister to me, a good caring sister. I hope that we'll still be like this even after the schools out. Thank you for being so nice and hearing out my weirdness "Madam!".

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. “ -- Eat.Pray.Love.
This is not mine. Disclaimer *haha*. This is a courtesy of Ms. Danica Alexis Diaz. She lent her camera to me because i left mine. I haven't tried Canon 'till that moment. I could say Canon didn't let me down like my Nikon. The difference in my opinion? Canon is inclined to vintage photos which is my favorite. Whilst, Nikon gives sharpness, edgy photos that's why i love it. Both are the best, and i would be lucky to have a Canon in the future. I'm happy with my Nikon and i'm really looking forward to enhancing its beautiful shots.

I've seen the Movie Eat.Pray.Love., A story of a progressive search for happiness and balance. I want to have that in my life. A Perfect balance is what i need. Peace of Mind and Peace in my Heart. Self-Enlightenment. 

 “You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should be trying to control.” ― Eat.Pray.Love.

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